Hi All and Salam Ramadhan to all muslims in the world.

Right now, I'm having mixed feeling about one of my friend. I don't know if I am still her friend or ex-friend but for me, she is still my friend because I had been known her for 7 years since study. We did have a fight since we are colleague but she mad at me because I need to quit my job drastically because I experienced these superstitious thingy when I back from work. I did give my explanations to her and she don't want to accept. It's really broke my heart when my old friend doesn't want to believe me and even didn't come to visit me so she can comfirmed either I'm lying or not. I just back to my hometown and family and luckily I have fully recovered.

Recently, I met my friends from old workplace and having iftar with them. I was really shocked of what I heard. After I got engaged, my old friend did questioned if I was serious with my fiance since my fiance only graduate from high school and I am a degree holder.


1. We got engaged and of course we're deadly serious with this relationship.
2. Even he only have SPM certificate, at least he always delicate with his job and never let himself unemployed.

Sadly, the person questioned all of this thing is educated. Why did she questioned about destiny? So, I need to have same or higher education than me so that she will consider it is a serious relationship? Even my family didn't questioned his education level and very welcoming him in my family and same goes to his family to me. That is enough for me to have serious relationship.

Be in relationship, it is more than be knowledgeable. Compromise in everything, understand to each other, and make the love grows everyday is the key in relationship. That is how to work the relationship.

The education level is wasted if you cannot think, act and do like one and it will make others judge your humanity level. Just saying.

How I Know The Crush Means.

It start on November 2015. I was a senior supervisor at electronic factory and this is my first time ever to work in manufacturing industry. I have a cheerful personality and always smile when meet with other people except with man. Actually at that time, it had been about three or four months since I broke up with my first love. I moved on but I don't want have any commitment in relationship.

My routine every morning was refill the water tank since I need to handle many big machines. I need to walk back and forth between my workplace and production side since I just had two 2L jugs. Every day I need back and forth 10m x 10 times. Sounds easy but it kinda troublesome.

One day, there is a guy opened up a door for me. I throw a smile (because someone being nice to me) and said thank you but he only make a stone face. Few days later, I walked with my friend and saw him. I told my friend that guy have a babyface looks. I want to say handsome but I don't want my friend get me wrong and the babyface term maybe the right way to replace it. Hihi. And my friend replied that guy maybe same age with us and I kinda shock because I thought that guy looks like a teenager. Bwahaha. And she said that guy already had a girlfriend. Disappointed? Nope. Not yet.

So, I know a little bit about his name and his real age. Guess what, he is a year older than me. His supervisor workplace just beside me and sometimes he came to meet his supervisor and of course I had a chance to see someone with a good looking. Most of the men in my factory are old, bald and unattractive. Hehe.

We started to have a conversation when he needs to give a mask since his work need to mix the chemical that produce a pungent smell. And there is where we start our friendship. He is totally a joker and annoying. It had been a while since I'm comfortable with other guy besides my first love. And I don't know when I started waiting for him to meet his supervisor. I realized that I had a crush to him but I cannot told him because he already have a girlfriend. Yes, I know my limit and I wouldn't over it.

We did hangout twice. First, hangout at Mamak after working overtime. Second, he took me to some places because I am new with the state. It just like friend hangout and nothing more than that. But sometimes his gesture made me blushed for a while. You must be wonder if his girlfriend know about our outing? He admit that he didn't tell his girlfriend because he have some issues with her. Me being happy about it? I don't like to look him in that way so I did advised him that his girlfriend is young and in her age, it is normal to her being childish. I know he didn't buy it because he is kinda egoistic.

Mid-December, I don't know where was wrong when he start to drift apart from me. I felt anxious. He did came to his supervisor room but he didn't greet me at all. All I can do was looked his reflection through the mirror. I know why this feeling named crush. Your heart is crushing cause you cannot let it out and express the love to that person. Not at all when that person had a lover. And I was powerless.

p/s: please do correct my grammar and I want to learn some new words for my story.

About Me

Whassup gang! So here is my first post. Well, I was thinking what I should name myself. Rambel. It comes in my mind just like that and of course it is not my true name.Well, just call me Rambel. I am 25-years-old Malaysian woman. Single but not available because I already engaged. I am a cool friend and typical girlfriend.

This is my English blog and had been blogged since 2010. So, what my another blog? Are you interested? Let just keep it as a secret. So, of course I know a little bit my reader because you might be a blogger too, a housewife, a bossy husband, an executive, a clerk, a keyboard warrior and whatsoever you wanna be.

The objective I create this blog is I want to improve my English through writing. In my Malay blog, I always end up write my title post in English version while the contents are in Malay. So, I wake up this morning and the thought came, "How about I create an English version blog?". Snap the fingers and a bulb on top of my head. Haha.

Why I wanna keep anonymous? Because I want to be more "OPEN" in here since my relatives and friends know about my other blog. Yeah. You're right! I wanna talk behind their backs! How do you know. Oh my mind mate. Hee. No la. I just want to have a big space for me without anyone bother about me and judge the real me.

So, welcome to my Rambel blog!! So long peeps.